just as an update for those of y'all who are worried: don't be. i was in a really shitty mood (obviously) when i posted that - and now i'm getting things turned around. my mood is 200% better today and yesterday than it was monday, i have an appointment with a shrink on thursday, and a lot of the issues with my staff that were causing my bad mood have been resolved or at least discussed. i've made a resolution to myself to stop missing class and get caught up in my studies, and so i think shit's going to get better. i've been letting things slide too much, but it stops yesterday. yay. i'll make it. i promise.