so this is shaping up to be a hellacious week. nonstop action from here to next monday, i kid you not. today was my only day off (well, relatively speaking) until after the weekend. and, i'm getting a cold. joy oh fucking joy.

tuesday, tomorrow, i am going to get my hair done. this is a big step for me since i haven't seen a professional stylist since i was a senior in high school. isn't that weird? anyway i have decided that i am sick of being a brunette (stupid seattle, not bleaching out my hair the way it should be) and am going blonde. with a capital B. plus i am going to get layers put in. Expect pictures, unless i hate myself and want to die afterwards. But this probably means that I'm going to have to persuade Lance to take a new headshot, since my hair will be radically different than it is now, and a headshot should look like you look, surprises at interviews are bad. with any luck, though, i will be walking out of there looking something like this.

Wednesday is the season premiere of America's Next Top Model! which basically consists of me sitting on my ass, watching this show and thinking (and talking to anyone who will listen) about how I would be way better at it than anyone else on the show. For the record, I submitted my application for season 5 a few weeks ago, complete with bad-ass photos by Lance and an even badder-ass video by mike (my old roommate). Who will go on to become America's Next Top Model? Tune in to find out. (My money is on Naima, but that means that she will come in third, like my favorite each season so far (Elyse, Shandi, Amanda)).

So, after Top Model Wednesday comes Top Model Thursday, on which date I have an interview with a "couture design studio" in Pioneer Square for a fashion show in May. Talk about being on top of their game. The last fashion show I did was thrown together at the last minute... with a walk-through twice about an hour before the show started. This one has rehearsals - twice a week - for the month leading up to the show. Plus fittings and all that fun stuff. I hope I get paid for this one, that'd be fuckin' sweet. But I will be absolutely positive to get good pictures and maybe even video this time, so that I have it for my portfolio (still haven't tracked down any photos from the last one, dammit).

And then, after Thursday, comes Friday. Friday the outlaws (they're not my inlaws, so they must be outlaws) are coming... and staying the weekend (in a hotel, not our apartment, thank christ). I am refraining from commenting on this matter in this forum. Needless to say it will be an interesting weekend.

In other news... my transcripts arrived at the UW office of admissions on time, which makes me very happy - wouldn't it suck to not get in just because a transcript didn't get there? They also got my financial aid app, but I have to amend that due to a straggling W-2 that I had forgotten about... My favorite goldfish, Agent Scully, kicked the bucket this week due most likely to my own stupid neglect, and two of my other fish are sick and undergoing anti-fungal treatment... the cats went fucking crazy this morning around 5am waking us both up and causing us to talk about giving Maxwell away (not seriously, but almost) - and then we saw on the news that there were 3 4.5ish earthquakes off the southern tip of Vancouver Island this morning at 5am, so it makes perfect sense that the kitties were flipping...


recently i've noticed i check my blog way more often than i post to it. it's like i expect someone else to be doing it for me. ha. nope. i'm the only one who can do it... anyway, it's been a crazy few days... i went to an open call on wednesday and landed a role in a local fashion show which is tonight and i am kind of like, what? what's going on? i guess it'll all make sense after tonight, 'cause it's like, my chance to find out if this is something i really wanna do, or if it's not. i'm pretty much convinced that it is... what the fuck else am i going to be doing for the months between now and when i go back to school anyway? honestly i am just so fucking bored in my job... i feel like my soul is being sucked from me. it has nothing to do with who i am, who i want to be, or what i want to do with my life... it's just what puts the house over my head and the food in my stomach. i'd go crazy if i hadn't discovered fashion. maybe it's just a distraction from what's really important, but what IS really important? honestly? right now at this point in my life what is important is that i'm having fun, and that i'm safe while i'm doing it.

maybe i really am a capricorn after all. i'm a dreamer, but when i do dream, i dream fucking huge. you don't have to have absolute direction as to what you want to do with every single day you have left on this planet... you just have to focus on the things that are making you happy, and pursue them. life, liberty, and the pursuit of fuckin' happiness!

or something. i don't really even know anymore.

so i stumbled across this awesome hip-hop group: haiku d'etat. google them. they're pretty fuckin sweet.


ugh, i think i'm getting sick.



I've decided that I'm going to London this late summer/early fall. I've found a few great deals on round trip tickets (the lowest I've seen is $480 round trip) and I am hoping to stay here. That is, if I can get a reservation. easyHotel sounds like the absolute best thing in the world - check out the link. Rooms in central London from 5 pounds (don't know how to make the squiggly L thingy) a night. How fucking sweet is that??? I know the exchange rate is hardly favorable right now, but from what I can tell that means that tourism in Europe is hitting hard times, so they're making stuff cheaper.

So I'm looking at the end of August or beginning of September, and hopefully will be staying 10 days to 2 weeks. This whole trip is going to be done on the super-cheap, I'm going to just use the Tube to get places and do as much free stuff as I possibly can while avoiding the tourist traps. I am hoping to keep the whole trip under a grand. One thing I am definitely hoping to do that isn't cheap, however, is take the eurostar through the chunnel to Paris for maybe a night or two. Probably just one. But the Eurostar is only $60 one-way for "youth" (which is anyone under 26) so that's really not TOO much money. Anyway, if anyone wants to go with, let me know. I'd love to have a companion or two.


It seems like almost every day I come up with something else that I think I might like to do with the rest of my life. This is problematic because I need to pick one and stick with it, goddammit. Yesterday I thought about becoming a veterinarian. I mean, I love kitties, and I'm good at biology... but that's like 6 years of schooling. Today my idea is to be a handbag designer. this is a little more reasonable, given my recent obsession with fashion combined with my always obsession with design.

I came up with at least six concepts for handbags while waiting for my tea to boil.

U.S. Encouraged by Vietnam Vote:
Officials Cite 83% Turnout Despite Vietcong Terror

by Peter Grose, Special to the New York Times -- Sept. 4, 1967

WASHINGTON, Sept. 3-- United States officials were surprised and heartened today at the size of turnout in South Vietnam's presidential election despite a Vietcong terrorist campaign to disrupt the voting.

According to reports from Saigon, 83 per cent of the 5.85 million registered voters cast their ballots yesterday. Many of them risked reprisals threatened by the Vietcong.

The size of the popular vote and the inability of the Vietcong to destroy the election machinery were the two salient facts in a preliminary assessment of the nation election based on the incomplete returns reaching here.

A successful election has long been seen as the keystone in President Johnson's policy of encouraging the growth of constitutional processes in South Vietnam.

The purpose of the voting was to give legitimacy to the Saigon Government.