random hello from budapest. i come home on sunday, and technically it's saturday now. so so not that long. :( and :) at the same time. you know?

look! i'm alive! and i'm in prague.

what fun. :D

well.... I'm out. See you all in two weeks.

well, one full day now until i leave for europe. i'm in the process of getting everything ready for my trip... got everything set out and mostly packed. it's my room that remains in disarray - so much stuff to throw in boxes, so many things to get rid of...

i dunno. it's over, this year is... and that's a good thing... but it's also sort of depressing. i won't see heather until spring quarter, and she's been my roommate for two years now. it's going to be so weird next year. no roommates... 172 freshmen banging my door down at all hours of the night... a slightly insane old guy living across the hall.....

and this summer... who knows how that's going to work out? i really, really hope i get to stay in seattle (for more than one reason) but i still have no idea whether or not that's going to work out...

hm, no wonder i'm getting thoughtful - it's 4:30 AM.

anyway, if you read this, you better call or find me on IRC or something tomorrow, 'cause it'll be the last time we get to talk before I get back from europe. and the postcard offer still stands, send me your address to my hotmail account.

i love you all.

i hate this time of year.

as a kid in my dorm last year so aptly put it, it's the time of year where roommates turn into mattresses. you never see the ugly green of the mattress if there's someone living there. It goes away when you move in, and once you move out the mattress reappears. It's depressing.

So here I am, in what was once a triple. But now it's just me and two hideous green mattresses.

so this is what it feels like to be giddy. i'd nearly forgotten.

! that's why i didn't blog at all this year. i literally didn't have the time. blogging time to me is very specific - it seems to come at its best in the dead middle of the night. earlier in the year i had someone to remind me when to go to bed. now i don't. i hate to think how many nights i'll spend sitting up doing nothing, blogging, reading web comics next year when i have a single.

it's kind of funny. i meant to go to bed, but i got distracted by megatokyo. that was like 2 hours ago. and then i went and got a mountain dew, and now i'm 257 comics into the series. it's surprisingly good. no wonder people have been telling me for years that i should read it.... heh.

funny how something like that can make me so emo. well, not that i haven't been emo recently anyway (for no apparent reason, no less) but still, the cute little stories that seem to always have tragic endings... it's so counterintuitive for something involving fictional characters, i guess... even if they are computer geeks and japanese schoolgirls.

oh well, at least it's cliche. i can rationalize.

man, i'm back to my good old self again. i've been distracted by relationships for the majority of the past three years, but man, I feel just like the old me again. the me who can relate to fucking ataris and alkaline trio lyrics and who stays up all night reading manga-style cartoons about the guy who just never quite manages to get the girl.

i think it's safe to say that i'm finally over the breakup.

i keep calling it that. "the breakup." but i guess there's not much else i can use to describe it. it was a breakup, and it wasn't just any breakup - it was the first time in my 20 years of life that i've truly had my heart broken by someone that i realistically thought that i had a chance at forever with (and who seemed to feel the same way for so long).

hm, okay, enough waxing poetic. it's 4:20 now. AM.

FINALS ARE OVER! YAY!

heh, random comment to anyone familiar with #bl: i've developed an aversion to typing in all caps for fear of getting kicked by dumbo, even when i'm not in IRC. heh. /me is a dork

Anyway. Now:
Leave for Europe: 7 days
Back from Europe: 20 days
Seattle: 22 days
Alaska: 26 days
Seattle again: 33 days

w00t.

If you want a postcard from Europe, email me your address to kereinhart at hotmail dot com. (I don't know why I bother spelling that out, it's not like I don't get enough spam already.... blah.) And I'll send you one. If I like you. I promise. :D

hm, the fuckers at blogback made me update my code, and so now all my comments are gone. :( leave me some love, people.

Stay with me for just today and
Let your soul come rest for a minute now
Share your mind if you have some time
I would love to sit and talk to you
I will wait if you ask me to
But I won't stay here forever now
I know your heart can keep me warm
Let me stay

I feel that your eyes won't open
And these dreams, my heart,
I can't deceive them
Maybe the moon will come down and save me
Maybe your eyes will stop me from falling
Oh I'm drowning, yeah
Oh I'm drowning, yeah
Oh I'm drowning, yeah
Oh I'm drowning, yeah

What can I say, what can I do
Is there any way to get close to you
I'll put myself into your shoes and
I'll walk around these streets of yours
It's cold outside where you stay but my
Heart is not far away
So take a breath and close your eyes
I want to hold you

I feel that your eyes won't open
And these dreams, my heart,
I can't deceive them
Maybe the moon will come down and save me
Maybe your eyes will stop me from falling

Oh I'm drowning (Oh I'm drowning don't you
know that I can't lift my head)
Oh I'm drowning (Yes I'm drowning how I
wish that I could catch my breath)
Oh I'm drowning (Oh I'm drowning don't you
know that I can't lift my head)
Oh I'm drowning (Yes I'm drowning and I can't
catch my breath)
You're so close...

When I feel that your eyes won't open
And these dreams, my heart,
I can't deceive them
Maybe the moon will come down and save me
Maybe your eyes will stop me from falling


Oh I'm drowning (Oh I'm drowning don't you
know that I can't lift my head)
Oh I'm drowning (Yes I'm drowning how I
wish that I could catch my breath)
Oh I'm drowning (Oh I'm drowning don't you
know that I can't lift my head)
Oh I'm drowning (Yes I'm drowning and I can't
catch my breath)

Oh I'm drowning (Oh I'm drowning don't you
know that I can't lift my head)
Oh I'm drowning (Yes I'm drowning how I
wish that I could catch my breath)
Oh I'm drowning (Oh I'm drowning don't you
know that I can't lift my head)
Oh I'm drowning (Oh I'm drowning and I can't
catch my breath)

Oh I'm drowning
I'm drowning

-cleveland lounge, drowning

Alkaline Trio

- Bleeder You came to me like a dream The kind that always leaves Just as the best part starts It ends so abruptly And leaves you stunned and naked In your bedroom all alone It's kinda funny how something so soothing Gets interrupted by the ring of a telephone And you broke me like the cigarette That I busted on the day I quit But now that i've been drinking I'm out of smokes and I wish that I had it Woke up to my daily headache And the realization that you are gone Oh my sweet darling happiness You've been away from me all along One thing that I've never said- I'm truly happy in my heart and in my head A lonely liver suspended in liquid You came to me like a dream The kind that always leaves, Just as the best part starts It ends so abruptly And leaves you stunned and naked In your bedroom all alone It's kinda funny how something so soothing Gets interrupted by the ring of a telephone One thing that I've never said- I'm truly happy in my heart and in my head A lonely liver suspended in liquid It's one thing that I never did was smile Missing a case - lacking a lid My heart bleeds for what you never did You never did For what you never did Never did For what you never did Never did, never did, never did You never did, you never did It's one thing that I've never said- I'm truly happy in my heart and in my head A lonely liver suspended in liquid It's one thing that I never did was smile Missing a case - lacking a lid My heart bled for what you never did until now

Goodbye Forever Take your wings outside, you can't fly in here Besides, a purple sky is better soaring for you my angel You're an angel, you little devil As for me i'll stay inside, I'll be just fine and I'll watch from the window Cannot categorize the nature of this sickness A miracle that you're alive Stuck to the roof of my mouth with a staple Remember last April when we saw US Maple? Somehow the singer showed the Fireside exactly how I feel And we say goodbye and go underground Or up towards the sky Up in smoke burnt down to size At least we're still friends, at least we're still alive Take your wings outside, no use for them in here Bad luck to open inside, work like umbrellas Like a broken mirror, it's getting clearer The end is closer than ever before And you'll want nothing more When your head hits the floor And you're lost in the darkness And we say goodbye and go underground Or up towards the sky Up in smoke burnt down to size At least we're still friends, at least we're still alive And we say goodbye and go underground Or up towards the sky Up in smoke burnt down to size At least we're still friends, at least we're still alive

jamie, on her boyfriend's twisted relationship with his (gay) CS professor: "i told him i wouldn't date him anymore if he hooks up w/ cain"

LOL. :D

is the new heading graphic artsy or pretentious? i can't decide.

Someone needs to learn that being woken up before 11AM and bitched at because the printer isn't working and you need it working NOW dammit because your paper is due today, never mind the fact that you and several other people in the house have known the printer has been broken for almost 4 days and no one, not one, has informed ME, the RCC, is not the way I like to start my day.

Oh and also, if you're going to bust in on me and tear me from precious slumber, you had fucking better close the goddamn door when you leave. I'm a-fucking-sleep. Jesus.

Oh, and also, if you knew the printer was broken on MONDAY why did you wait until FRIDAY MORNING to tell me about it, and then get all huffy when I acted tired and asked if I could look at it LATER (as in, AFTER I GET UP) and respond with a "fine, but I know a lot of people have things to print."???? There's only one answer.

You're a whore.

massive attack is exactly what i need to hear right now. it's perfect.

finals on monday. time to buckle down. i will... tomorrow.

it's so close to the end. i really can't say i'm going to be too sad to move out of this house - it hardly holds fond memories for me. in fact, it hardly holds memories at all, given that i barely lived here for the majority of the year. i didn't bond with any people here. i'm ready to get out.

i wish i knew what this summer held for me.......

the world is beautiful

where did all my posts go? *sniff* they'd better not be *gone*.........

oooh, new blogger interface.

Countdown time!
Finals left: 2
Days until:
done with finals: 4
leave for Europe: 11
back from Europe: 24
Seattle: 27
Alaska: 31
Back from Alaska: 38

and after that, summer is open.

aaaaaand... RCC training starts in 95 days.

Wow, this is bordering on the latest I've ever hauled my lazy ass out of bed. I really need to work on this whole "i need a lot of sleep" thing and get myself back down to 8 or 9 hours a night. At the most. Having morning classes next year (which I assume I will) will help with that. As will living in a dorm with 172 freshmen.

I had a dream that my roommates rearranged all the furniture in our room except for mine, and that Lyndsie moved her bed into the closet and Heather turned hers into a couch. And none of our lamps would work, even though we had like seventeen of them. And then I dreamed about stealing some sort of mythical substance that was stored i a Heineken bottle from a grocery store. I walked out with it in my hand. No security guards even blinked. One of them asked if it was "that stuff" and asked if I knew how it was. I told him I'd let him know.

I think I need to stop sleeping. My dreams are starting to freak me out.

More fun - JP's birthday. Yay, happy birthday JP.

It's Monday night. Ugh ugh ugh ugh. Finals friday - ugh ugh ugh. First final Friday, second (last) final on Monday a week from today. Then Monday two weeks from today - EUROPE! yaaaaaaaaaaay!

July 2 - fly to Seattle
July 6-13 - Alaska! Yay!

I don't have a ticket out of Seattle yet. I think I'm just going to stay there for the whole summer. Yay! I'm gonna move in with Jared - I can sleep in Radical Edward's bed. I love kittens.

That may have been the most nonsensical post I've ever made to this blog.

finals start friday.

time for panic mode.