jamie: he overclocks....
kat: and he has sex
kat: i don't get it

yum. angsty alternative. I just randomly started reading my blog from last november - what a different world it was. It's so weird the way life evolves such that we don't really think it's so different from day to day, but slowly phases end and begin... man, i used to be so eloquent in my blog. I wonder if I can get back there.

I think it's not so much unhappiness that forces me to blog, but loneliness, which is entirely a different matter.

So anyway, I'm listening to angsty alternative and reading my blog. On a sunday night that is really a saturday night.

In the words of the amazing strong bad, check me out. no, seriously, check me out.

I am awesome again today.

That is all.

it's been said that i only blog when i'm unhappy.

i started blogging, and look, i'm unhappy again.

things wrong with my life:
1. my boyfriend broke up with me and now i am empty
2. my back hurts like fuck (i think i have a pinched nerve)

empty. lonely.

words just don't suffice.

"losing love is like a window in your heart" paul simon

Branner Staff 2003-04.... w00t!

"Initiation" was hella fun. They blindfolded us in our dorms and drove us around enough to confuse the hell out of us, and then took us to the Gates of Hell, where we finally got to meet everyone. Funny story: At one point JP shared how he'd pissed behind the bushes while Branner was at the Gates of Hell before classes started freshman year, and then it turned into a staff initiation thing. Every guy, and two girls (Britt and I, go us) pissed in the bushes. What fun. =D

I am awesome today.

tim: stop working so much, i'm starting to really miss you.

I'm also thinking of blogging more.

I'm thinking of dreading my hair.

And in other news, Kimball 355 is now a single. Will this be the end of Jamie's virginity? Exclusive report on the 11 o'clock news...

I had the weirdest dream last night. I was wandering around Tim's dorm, I think. I was in this room across the hall from his room that doesn't really exist, that had 3 residents. I didn't think this was weird. I remember my two upper canine teeth coming loose. I couldn't stop wiggling them, either, like a child. Then they got really, really loose, and I had to keep pushing them into the sockets so they wouldn't fall out. I started to wonder if this was a dream. But, I had no way of telling. I remembered from psych class that one way of telling if you're dreaming is to turn a light switch and see if anything happens. If it does, you're not dreaming. So I found a light switch (funny, when I looked for one, I found about four, in the middle of a wall.) and flipped it. Several lights turned on and off, and the alarm clock's face turned to a different time. Dammit, I thought, the light switch did something, so I must not be dreaming. I think it's really weird the level of analysis that I was doing on this dream trying to find that it was a dream, and I couldn't see the obvious signs: my teeth were falling out, one person's bed being on the floor under the leg of another's bed, the room across the hall from Tim's being a triple not a single, finding four light switches just when i needed one... I really need to become more analytical in my dreams.

I've also managed to figure out what the teeth falling out or decaying or being ground away in my dreams means. It means I'm worried about something irrational, I think. I remember falling asleep after waking up at about 9:30 that morning, to discover I hadn't started my period in the night, so I thought I might be pregnant. And then the teeth thing happened in the dream. It's starting to make sense...

well, i'm home. home sucks and is boring.

but on the plus side, TTT came out today, and i'm going to see it in... 3 and a half hours! yay!

i was so about to post a nice happy blog but tiredness has overcome me. my flu-ridden (at least i think that's what this affliction is; it's not a cold, that's for sure, but it's got aches and pains and headaches. just no fever yet. anyway, i digress.) ass needs to get to bed.

goodnight.

HU'S ON FIRST
By James Sherman

(We take you now to the Oval Office.)
George: Condi! Nice to see you. What's happening?
Condi: Sir, I have the report here about the new leader of China.
George: Great. Lay it on me.
Condi: Hu is the new leader of China.
George: That's what I want to know.
Condi: That's what I'm telling you.
George: That's what I'm asking you. Who is the new leader of China?
Condi: Yes.
George: I mean the fellow's name.
Condi: Hu.
George: The guy in China.
Condi: Hu.
George: The new leader of China.
Condi: Hu.
George: The Chinaman!
Condi: Hu is leading China.
George: Now whaddya' asking me for?
Condi: I'm telling you Hu is leading China.
George: Well, I'm asking you. Who is leading China?
Condi: That's the man's name.
George: That's who's name?
Condi: Yes.
George: Will you or will you not tell me the name of the new leader of China?
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: Yassir? Yassir Arafat is in China? I thought he was in the Middle East.
Condi: That's correct.
George: Then who is in China?
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: Yassir is in China?
Condi: No, sir.
George: Then who is?
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: Yassir?
Condi: No, sir.
George: Look, Condi. I need to know the name of the new leader of China. Get me the Secretary General of the U.N. on the phone.
Condi: Kofi?
George: No, thanks.
Condi: You want Kofi?
George: No.
Condi: You don't want Kofi.
George: No. But now that you mention it, I could use a glass
of milk. And then get me the U.N.
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: Not Yassir! The guy at the U.N.
Condi: Kofi?
George: Milk! Will you please make the call?
Condi: And call who?
George: Who is the guy at the U.N?
Condi: Hu is the guy in China.
George: Will you stay out of China?! Condi: Yes, sir.
George: And stay out of the Middle East! Just get me the guy at the U.N.
Condi: Kofi.
George: All right! With cream and two sugars. Now get on the phone. (Condi picks up the phone.)
Condi: Rice, here.
George: Rice? Good idea. And a couple of egg rolls, too. Maybe we should send some to the guy in China. And the Middle East. Can you get Chinese food in the Middle East?

i'm blogging from a wireless connection! beautiful!

I finally bought an 802.11b card. They were at Fry's for $50 with a $30 mail in rebate - not bad, not bad at all. so yeah, exciting. yay wireless. yay!

my boyfriend is interviewing for a Real Job. like, a post-graduation full-time position. in richmond, virginia.

am i getting old?

dude, so i just updated (mostly removed old stuff) my website. weird.

not much to blog about. partied in oakland on friday night, that was fun... slept a lot this weekend, like always... painted "passion" tonight. i don't quite know if i like it yet, but i'll figure that out later. i need to get off my ass and make an online portfolio of my shit... spent fuckloads of time with tim, like usual, which i love. god, i'm so in love. it's pathetic.

"i'm sleeping later, waking later, eating less and thinking more" -everything but the girl

weirdo.

colin, on military training for sex: "i haven't gotten around to finishing the deed yet, but if it ever comes to that, i'll know what to do."